myshit

2006-04-02T12:38:00.000+08:00

The one reason you should be jealous; i've got her and you dont!

Babes day @ Town yesterday.
Had so much fun!
Shopped and crapped and chilled at ma crib.
Ouh, awesome!
GRJ AND JASVIN! I SO TOTALLY HONESTLY LOVE 'YA HOTTIES!
Bought this bag. Hot pink and black mickey faces; not childish but timeless!
That was hot.
Jes's new 3-quarters are hot.
Can't wait to do it again! We so totally rock.

RAJIMA was on tele yesterday.
Gawd that lady can act. And omg she looked so bloody gorgeous!!
I got half a million calls not telling me about the drama, but how gorgeous she looked!
Cummon' pps. She's ma mummy's sister; my aunty; MY Rajima! Duhh she's hot! Oh but she's married so yeah.
She was Mrs. Singapore 2000. =D
I SO TOTALLY LOVE HER!
( oh and the drama was friggin scary! Not like the normal claiming-to-be-scary-but-actually-bullshit kinda drama. Catch it when it airs every Saturday @ 9.30pm on Vasantham Central. For those with cable it's 05. )

I think im an extremely lucky and happy kid.
I'm thankful for everything god has given me in life.
=]

2006-03-31T23:17:00.001+08:00

Never cared about what people say about me. Not planning to care neither.
Noone's EVER BROUGHT ME DOWN. Noone's going to neither.
So continue talking about me; so honoured to know i'm always on your mind.

I'm a HAPPY HAPPY kid!!! :D

Okay headed down to J8 with mum.
Had sooo mych fun! I love her soososoosososo much!!
My friends think she's super mum cuz she's my true bestet bestie and she's uber GORGEOUS!
( i dun exagerate, dun worry ((: )
People think she's punjabi + chindian. And people think we're sisters! Arrgh!
She's uber sarcastic and hillarious! Omg, i sooo love her!!! =D

Okay so had a great time.
We ate; we shopped; we talked; we gossiped.
Then we met some old guy who's her 'old neighbour' and that drunkard went like bla bla bla for 20 solid minutes. Geesh.
Told her we shld've taken the longer route!!

I finally gon' do it!!
My mum let me!! Omg yayyY!!!
Dun worry GRJ darlz, i wun make it obvious. I love you so much. ((:
I can't wait till morn!!! Finally!
If you wana know what, i'm not telling.
ASK ME cuz i've discovered certain unwanted no-lifers actually stick their nose into my private life by reading this.
But my darlins are soooo welcomed!

It hurts to think you'll never know how it feels.
But i still smile 'cuz we're friends.
You'll never know, but it's better that way.
I'd rather we remain totally comfy with each other.
But it does hurt, i won't pretend it dosen't.
Your the only thing i care about, that's bruised me(unknowingly) in ages.
((:

Ok. i wana sleep.
Can't wait for babes day out tomoro.

Takkaire pps.
wink;
((:

2006-03-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

Class was so fucking hillarious.
God i think mine is the only unlame yet funny class. LOVEIT.
Oh and yupp. I'm open-minded.
Open minded(ness) is NOT being ignorant.
Yupp.

KELLY! I love you gorgeous!! Your sososososooo beautiful, both inside and out.
AND YOUR NOT FAT! YOUR REALLI THINNNN XD

2006-03-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

Geesh, reading my entries, i sound like some miserable kid yearning for company.
Oh please, that's so not me.
Ouhkay people back to whatever.

Today was a friggin funny day.
Class ass clowns were ass-clowning.
The guys were busy try'nna be nerds. You know nerds as in, those fellas with thick glasses, high socks and uber tight pants.
Yeah, those sexay dudes.

Inderjit's got a rectangular butt, you know? Sweet.
Drama was so fucking boring.
God.
Bitches, i so freaking love ya'll.

Oh and to that special pandi whu's kinda been there for me and stuff.
I guess you and i both know who you are and i KNOW you're reading this.
Thanks alot idiot.
Sometimes it means alot just to know there's someone there for 'ya. And that thought is simply enough to make your day.
Your the world of a friend to me, and seriously sometimes i tell you things i don't remember telling anyone else.
I agree, we do get busy and don't talk at times, but a good friendship dusnt mean clinging on 24/7 rytes?
You know sometimes if it werent for you being there listening to me blabber, i duno what i'd do.
You might not know this, but yeah, you kinda mean a lot to me.
((:

oh well.
Taa's ma lovelies!

2006-03-27T16:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday AngJie!
( .. and yeah i said BIRTHDAY not birdie/birdae you moron. )

Today was totally not the best day of my life.
If things continue, i'mna start loathing school.

I duno why but all of a sudden i kinda feel deprieved.
As though something is seriously screwed up indside me. I'm just..
Well.. Kinda sad.
I can't figure out why.
There's your answer to my 'pms' days.
I feel so broken up inside. Don't tell me you understand; you don't.
I just feel like noone cares. And all those who do, i feel like their faking.
I don't feel cheerful anymore. And it feels like i'm getting betrayed.
I just can't trust anyone anymore.
Dark clouds seem to block my sunshine.

You know when i actually sit down to think about it, i feel like such a moron.
I'm always there for you, like a spineless fugstick.
But you hardly realise, you always seem to be chasing after one thing or another.
Your never there for me, your not even half of what i am to you.
Maybe it's just that guys are like that, that they care but can't show.
But it's always about YOU. It's always this or that, do you even realise i'm here ?
To be more then just listen to your shit.
I swear even after you read this you'd have no idea. I wonder why i break my back when i can actually spend all my energy with people who love and care about me.
Your just a self-centred he-bitch.

Quit asking me freaking irritating questions when i'm not bothered.
I fucking bet the person i'm refering to won't have a clue, but every other tom-dick-harrys' gon' ask me if it's he im talking about.

Damn. Just my life.

2006-03-25T10:24:00.000+08:00

Bobby befriended a beautiful brown rabbit.
Chased it like he's never chased anyone before. Oh yeah, the owner almost had a heart-attack.
But eventually, everything turned out fine.
Guess Bobby dosent fancy Rabbit stew.

2006-03-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

Why is everyone so fascinated with my ass all of a sudden???

People please attend my funeral and dont be stingy with the donations.
Starting monday we have math everyday.
Singing ode to joy yet?

Well well, now we know why that moron wants to be our form teacher.
I guess noone volunteered to be the form teacher of our class, given the reputation we've worked so hard to earn.
Whatever, i love my class to bits and pieces.
Oh yeah. Ms Salinah taught us how to forge our parents sigies. Even the office stuff encouraged us to.
In the future if i end up in drug rehab, you know who to blame.

And for the last time i'm NOT 'chio' !!
Arrgh. People.
Oh and Nisa thought im mad with her, dimwit. What are the chances of that?

I'm really not in the mood these days. Been snapping at so many people, and you know what; i dont give a shit. I made it crystal clear that im pretty moody now. If people wana push buttons, they gotta deal with the afermath. Had a quarrel with Pra. I'm loosing it people, so please PLEASE DO NOT PROVOKE ME. Try and I'll screw you. I swear. I'm a really mean mean nasty bitch.

Well, gotta run!
Taas' bitches.

2006-03-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

My sore ass.
Now Dee's started hitting me too.
Ouchhhhhh.

Dumb miss lee.
Wants me to clip up my freench.
And what's wrong with my frames? I think they're perfectly gorgeous and so does everyone else.
Purple stands for independance. I don purple stuff. I love purple.
I'm not changing them and thats final.

Paper war during math.
Dumb guys. Apparently aiming at Ang Jie and hitting me where it hurts is very funny.
Luckly he apologised or i'd have squeezed the guts out of him.
Dickheads.

Oh yeah. I've got huge eyes and double-eyelids.
God made me that way. So piss off and stop craving for what you don got.
It just pisses me off.

Oh yeah. If i've been snapping at you & havent been speaking to you; it's not your fault.
I'm human too, no matter how nice i am.
I've got those i-just-got-out-of-the-wrong-side-of-the-bad days.
So dun push the buttons and take a hint when i give it.
Other then that; i love everyone who loves me.
Those whu dunt, fuck off i don give a shit.

Taa's bitches!

2006-03-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday Nisa Darlz
Happy Birthday to you

Doink, you think i forgot? Bitch! Happy birthday babe! Thanks for everything dearie. Its been such a short time and it feels like eternity. I love you ((:

The usual drudgery. Seem to be thinking a lot about studying but never really manage to get my ass off to actually do it. I really need to start. Yea, seem to be saying that forever. Sigh. Know what? it feels good to be with you, but it often makes me think about stuff that i'd prefer not to think of. You really made me realise it's each individual for their own. Im commentless.

My ass hurts, Gotta stop Eve from whacking me every single time we meet. Idiot. It's either my ass or ___. That horny thing from the whole family of (my)horny sweethrts. Oh yeah. Im open-minded. That's a good thing so all you narrow minded people can go eat shit.

Kelly, sarang haeyo to you too my jaan.

POA test tomoro. My aching brain. Life is such a drag.
Taa's bitches.!

2006-03-19T01:21:00.005+08:00

Look, I'm sorry if i seem like a mean, arrogant, ignorant bitch. I'm not that soft cackling girl that sticks around and smiles even if you take my candy and replace it with shit, anymore. Im 15 now. Im growing up. I noe, i look different. I AM different in more ways then you can immagine. I'm bold. I take my stand. But why can't you accept me?? Why cant you see that im growing?? I know you liked me like i used to be. I know you miss that sweet, innocent, smiling, naive girl. Im not that anymore. It happens; people change. I did. I dun pretend im intrested in what i'm not intrested in animore.

Guilt took over. I dint noe what i was doing. I know you were puzzled. But i was searching. Now i've found and i'm content. But it's too late, the gap's too wide. We were kinda close. But then everything stopped. I'm a complex person, please dont try figuring me out. I know you did. That got you far.. I dint expect what i got. You wowed me. Your such a gorgeous person. I love who you are on the inside. Sweet, nice. I duno how else to put it. Look, it'd be great if we could start again, But it's not that easy. ((: I'll miss you.

The chalet was okay. Almost burnt. Damn wax candles. I bet everybody thought i was so Emo. It's just the way i am. Dint want to swim, got dragged into the water by the dimwit of a couzin bro i have. Was scared the wits outta my socks thanks to Chittapa and his PONTIANAK laughter. Apparently, they find my fear very entertaining. Try sitting in the balcaony of the chalet with your cousin and his friend talking and then hear this totalli freaky sound. God.

Met Rathiy machal's friend. Talked. And i THOUGHT I was TALL. haha. Walked along the beach at about 10+. The guys were DESPRATELY tring to scare the fuck outta me and Gami. HA. that got them far. Scumbags.

I'll get the photos uploaded later. I dun like publishing my photos on friendster, so check out my msn window.

Taa's bitches!

2006-03-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

NS guys are hillarious. Expecially the types that practically fall and turn to apologise to you when you did nothing but freeze in suprise. Hahaha. Lameness. Went to the lib wif Nisa and her sis today. I love them both. They're awesome people.

Studied POA. Ate ice-cream. Blah blah. Other boring events i dun think you'd be intrested in. Oh yeah. FINALLY got the book i wanted.

I'm a bitch. Yeah i am. But i'm NOT YOUR BITCH. And there's a humongous diff between a bitch and a slut, dig that. And there's more to being a bitch then you think. You gotta have the GUTS to stand up for yourself and you so totalli gotta have the brains. I LOVE MY BITCHES. *wink;

I am such a butterfly. I'm uber care-free and i live a happy teenage life. My dreams and ambitions are HUGE. I know what i REALLY want and i make sure i work to get where-ever i want. I'm a totally frank and straightfoward person so piss off if you can't get along with me. I dont stick with certain people, i mix. If you have a beef with me; i don't give a shit. If you loathe me that is so totally your problem. Like i said, i couldn't be bothered. And i have a huge temper, don't mess with me. I swear you'll be suprised. I STAND UP for myself and what i believe in. I'm a no-nonsense person so let that sink deep. If you think im arrogant; fuck off. Just because i'm nice dosent mean im naive. I'll make you sorry you ever messed with me.

Im so totalli happy.
PARIS HERE I COME!!!
Taa's pps.
You know you love me.

2006-03-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

To that
cutehindustani dude that tripped. [If he ever reads this] It's okay, it wasnt your fault. See this realli realli cute indian guy smiled at me somewhat near causeway point, and then tripped. I tried to warn him though. Haha. It's okay dude. Your not clumsy; it just happens. I dint noe people like that tripped, he just looked so smart and cool and posh and bla bla. Lol.

Went to Sentosa. My legs r aching. Had an okay time. Went to harbour front, walked; ate. Then went to Fort Selosa. E6'05. I <33> u!

Played Volleyball. Captains ball was the best, the guys against the girls. Those nuttos; ended up throwing the ball in the air and running away frm them. Oh well; had a great time. Came back only at 6 plus. Tired tired tired.

okai pps.
Gotta play tug-of-war and get back my socks, before pushing bobby outta the bed and locking him outside.
Now dun go missing me aites?
wink;
Taas' Gorgeys!

2006-03-14T14:08:00.000+08:00

I am so screwed. Math test was super tough. Dear 3E7 +RIP+ lovelies! Even future-masters-in-science-degree-holder Nisah couldnt' do the test. Having Mashadi and Ang Jie right behind you is of course; not much help. Expecially when you continue to laugh your ass off and the math teacher barks at you for it because she noes the others have no hope.

Skipped drama, like i said; trash of my time. Ate at Mac wif Nisah, spend the day with her.
Babe, listen. I'd be there for u no matter what and i love you loadies but somethings that happen in life, we cannot help but abide by. Stuff like this dosent lie in our hands. But i still think your extremely lucky. Your blessed with beautiful features, a brain that is much envied, a wonderful personality and beautiful friendships. *Hints,hints* =P [[Wink-'

Wanted to go to West Mall ended up going to Clemanti cuz ms know-it-all forced me into the wrong bus. Bitch! -WeEps- Okay fine. Still had a blast. The clothes there are super cheap but ultra cool. Like the Giordano stuff. Gotta go shop. shop. shop. Oh yeah and i wana buy _____. Oh and ma glasses too!

Okay pps.
Freakin hungry.
Wana go watch Final Destination 2 (yeah it's on DVD)
Taas'

2006-03-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

Jay-walked in front of policemen who were acting like the leaning tower supporting this really old drunk dude.

Drama was a complete trash of my time. So boring. Like totally. Oh did i meantion lame?

It's midnight. I've got a bloody math test in exactly 8 hours. So much for beauty sleep. Now i gotta mug. If you really come to think of it. School days beat holidays. Oh and i've given up on Pra. Forget the notes i'd rather make my own notes.

I want a whole list of new stuff; but im BROKE. Gona start saving for 'e Paris trip. =D
OoOOoO boy! Cant wait! Just me and her. ohohohoh! I won't miss you small pps when i roll high! wink*

Back to freaking studying.
Tas' pps!

2006-03-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

Scorpians have very complicated personality.
They are clever, non-compromising, calculative and self-protective.
Money is very important to them.
Sometimes they have a "sixth sense": they can feel things by intuition that others cannot.
They are very loyal and protective towards friends and loved ones.
Scorpians can say something and have in mind exactly the opposite.
They are good actors.
They can "poison" other people at any time.
They would do anything to accomplish their goals.
In relationships, they could be dangerously jealous.
They are also passionate and caring.
Scorpio is ruled by Mars.
Scorpians are good teachers, actors, buisnessmaen, accountants and sociologists.

Source :
EARTHSCOPE ENTERPRISES.
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

Well well, what'dya know?
It's researched AND accurate.
For once in my life;
i feel completely read.
((:

2006-03-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

I miss my Hanisah.

:((

2006-03-12T19:40:00.000+08:00

When i look in the mirror im not sure of what im seeing anymore.
I just feel so different now. Everyone around me is changing, and so am i.
I'm not that small little thing running around anymore.
I'm bold. I stand up for what I WANT. Not for what u YOU want.
I'm seriously the sweetest funnest thing you'll find. The bestest friend you'll ever meet.
But i can be the meanest bitch. Trust me.
I've got a temper that's coated with so much sugar it's impossible to see through.
I've been through enough and i'm wary. I know better than you think i do, i know a lot.
I don't feel threatened by anyone's presence.
Don't try sucking up to me; takes more then anything to get me to trust you.
I'm not all smiles anymore so dun mess with me.
If you smile and i dun return it GET THE HINT.
I dun live for you. I think PETTINES is SHITY.
Get that.

P.S : E6'05/04 SENTOSA OUTING
THURSDAY AT 11 AM, JE.
PROCEED TO SENTOSA.

2006-03-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY DARLINGS!

I LOVE THEM AND ONLY THEM!

LOVELOVELOVELOVE.

I AM AN EXTREMLY NICE AND HAPPY PERSON.

BUT DON'T MESS WITH ME OR I'LL FUCKING KICK YOUR BLOODY ASS.
I CAN BE REALLY MEAN. TRUST ME.

My life is the closest thing to perfection;
but im not.
I love you if you love me.
Wink*
Im unwritten.

2006-03-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

[[ Why are all my hopes dashed when you just said thoese things without saying them. Why do i feel so ugly when i'm looking better. Why do i feel butterflies in my belly when i grab the phone and dial you. Why am i so consious about myself when i think about you? Why can't i accept stuff and move on?

It's been sometime, and i thought i was kidding myself; but that's just not it. I can't explain whats going on. It started with Nisa teasing and now it ends up like this? I can't explain what's going on but yet i refuse to let anyone read me. I don't show, i bottle up, while everyone opens to me. I refuse to unload the burden even though i know it'd be less heavy when i do. Why am i so arrogant to others similar to you, yet so nice to you? Why do i make time? Ohh kill me. I'm just shattered. I'm confused. But i'm not letting it show. Its a pudding; my feelings. A mixture of this and that. ]]

Today was pretty okay. People seem to be pissing me off alot lately. Some dumb brats can't accept the fact that i have a temper too; they end up trying to be sarcastic and get shit thrown right at their faces. Bloody morons. GET THIS : I DUN GIVE A FUCK TO WHAT YOU SAY OR THINK ABOUT ME. Ungrateful menace. You think im'na come begging for your friendship? What'd you got that i dont? Oh please pea-brain. I helped u so much before and now just cuz i snapped at you your giving me this shit. Dig this : FUCK OFF. Scumbag.

Got stung by a bee. Dumb Ang Jie! Gave me the shock of my life saif i'm gonna swell like a ballon. Oh well; Mrs Rethinem got me to go to the GO. Had some PATHETIC medication. Recovered~ erm- i think. Okay so. Went to Mac afterschool. Slipped, held on for a sec and fell in slow motion. JAJAR YOU BITCH! Assholic moron. Gave me that 'can we go now' look and i just sat there cross-legged. Eventually we got our asses off and went to Mac. Crapped and ate. Yummy! Went bk to school. Met the rest of our bitches and went back to join pira to eat. Omigosh we are SO THE DRAMA. Haha. I love you bitches!

P.s : If we stand up for our rights you call us bitches. If we cross into the line of modern fashion you call us bitches. More then a ear-stud : Bitches. Always together : Bitches. Gossip : Bitches. Stand up for each other : Bitches. If you dun like us : Bitches.
Therefore we are official bictches.
I LOVE MY BITCHES!

2006-03-06T22:33:00.001+08:00

I AM SO FREAKING PISSED WITH MY MT TEACHER

She's a heartless bitch. FUCKYOU FUCKSTICK!

I WANA PUSH HER DOWN THE STAIRS AND STICK PINS IN HER LOWER ABDOMEN AND USE FORKS TO GORGE OUT HER EYES AND RIP OUT HER VOCAL CORD.

Bloody Dorkwad, i was suffering from EXCRUCIATING pain. Bloody Musscle cramps for Pete's sake! I DO NOT CRY. I AM A STRONG PERSON. but i coulnd't take the fucking pain, it bloody got to me. And i actually cried. I was like moaning from pain and she asks me to sit up straight and copy stuff down?? What's she made of? BRICKS AND STONE? FUCKA! i was SOOO iin pain. I LOVE PIRA. thankyou dear for halping me pull thru. Thanks to Hanisah darling <33> and Liyana sweethrt for checking up on me.

Jasvin (Jes) met me at the school gate; spent some time with her. JASVINDER KAUR I LOVE YOU, AND I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU, RAIN OR SHINE. DON GIVE A SHIT ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAY, CUZ THEY DUN MATTER. I NOE YOU. I BELIEVE IN YOU. MUACKZ!

I miss GRJ. i hope she got wat she wanted.
<33>

GUYS ARE SUPER LUCKY THEY DUN HAVE THEIR PERIODS.

2006-03-05T18:37:00.000+08:00

I AM FCUKING PUTTING ON ALL THE WEIGHT I LOST.

I'M SO BUSTED IF I DUN STOP MYSELF FROM BEING A BUM.

SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT.

SOMEONE SAVE ME. I NEED TO GET MY ASS OUTTA THE DOOR. HAJAR, PIRA, MY OTHER CRITICS. WHERE'D 'YALL GO.

I NEED TO GET BACK MY FCUKING LIFE.

=X

2006-03-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Lemmongrass

Check'kit out pps'
((:

2006-03-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

Today was a blast. I'm so happy things between us cleared up. I'm so delighted. I think your really different now. You apologised, you made up. I don need an apology. You were my bestie, you are and always will be.IloveYOUsoMUCHdearie.

Jajar and pira came over today. Practically screamed, crapped and had a typical girl's day. Nothing got done but oh well. THE FOG IS NOT PLAYING. Bloody cinemas. I wana watch Final Destination 3. I can pass for 16- like duh.! But what if they wana check my IC. Damn.
Ate Ice Kachang. Talked about shit. Shopped @ minitoons. Pira's Birthday in 2 weeks. Going East-coast to celebrate. Need to get her a gift. Must go shopping. Got a few for more weeks for that certain weekend to arrivel; i'm uber excited. Can't wait. I simply cant explain why. Must go get clothes for that too. Need new frames. And a new hp. I'm broke.

Common tests start monday.
Damn Mrs Ko. She is so de bull. I hope she gets knocked over by a speeding rocket and looses her memmory.
That'd be cool.

I LOVE MY GIRLS! YOU ROCK MY UNIVERSE SWEETHEARTS!

2006-03-03T23:16:00.000+08:00

I don wana hear it. I don need an apology. I was taken aback by de way you took it, but i wans'nt shocked. See i know you better then that. I love you and always will. I see it comming, and i guess people do change. It might take some time, but i see you trying. I got de missed calls, i just dun wan an explanation, i just wana take it from where we left off. I dono if things can be exactly de same, i just don want it to be any different. I just want you back as a whole. You don owe me an apology. Iloveyou girl.

School was ok. Hajar din't come. Ms. Lee gon' be our form teacher. Moron. I'll miss Ms. Salinah. No her, no fun during phyics. De guys were extra cocky today. Cocky, but funny. Monday my turn to get de Menthos for de relay system. Gotta get started on de project. Wana see The Fog wif them next week, supposed to go tomoro, but i cant go. Ok so yup. I'm sleepy.

2006-03-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

My words were true, my feelings were too.
Two bodies we were, one soul we shared.
The smiles, the giggles, the slaps, the cuddles. You left my whole heart deflated.
You hissed, you cried. You made me sad. Your words hurt bad, they scarred me deep. I never immagined you were such a creep.
You said i lied, you said i hide. But I told you all, good and bad.
I loved you, i cared and You gave it back.
You supported me; but times there were, when you ignored me.
I mingled; i mixed. You were the best, but not de only.
My love for you, was not mommentary. Ambiance fun, we laughed, we giggled.
Expected, this was. Early, it came. Soon it arrived; The great separtaion.
With no ryhme or reason you began to strike. Weather pride or stress, you never said.
You marched back up and took back your claims. You left me silent, you made me think. Do i really think you were woth de pain?
How 'bout de others, u mean it's all de same. In the end it's right, it's you for your own game.
You played me out when you got me thinking.
I rang, you faked. I hung, i pondered.
Fault's on your side, shud i be devasted?
I pick maself up and i move on,
See a girl like me don remorse.
((:

Things happened. You made me a fool. You have your pride and i have mine. After all being said about sisterhood and all; i feel like an idiot. I'm not going to sit around crying about it. I've got my life, i've got my pride. But still, i apologise when i'm in de wrong. This time i'm not, in fact i never was. It's all up der in your head. Afterall this, if we were to get back together. Do 'ya think we can alter time, get it all back? Things r not gona be the same, maybe hate will fester. But i loved you once and once again. My feelings are all scribbled in the poem above. I'm done wif all da crap after this, i'm moving on. You'd just be one of ma friends, on in the 1001.

You shattered the heart,
you broke the trust.

2006-02-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

The grass on de other side always seems greener, but in de end never is. Never crave for or simply envy someone your not, or something tha's not in your posession.

Had drama club. Went pretty fine. Was held in the library. Saw wanling, jessica and Hui Jen. I seriously don't know if i'm that funny 'cuz they were laughing till ling went tomatao-red and was kinda crying. That idiot. Horny pig. PIG PIG PIG. haha. Ate at mac. Was wif Hajar, Pira and Aish. Met Jas in de morn. Yupp. Class was fun, as always, though lessons were a drag, as always. I owe someone a slap. Will debit that. Math common test monday. Fuggit. I feel like such a dumbass when i don't grasp stuff.

Taught Ang Jie how to pronounce my full name, now that's all he's calling me. Idiot. Hajar's calling me Miss. Chels. Nonsensical bestiie of mine. Actually, it sounds pretty cool. Haha. you know what? Everyone arnd the 4 of us think we're uber funny. But we find ourselves pretty normal. Probably too immune to the insults and sarcasm thrown at each other that we find the funny things we say, everyday-words. P.s dun get de wrong idea! We's super duper close. Like the particles in an ice cube. Ermm. I did so not say that. Anyway, advertisment project starts tomoro. Gonna be absolute fun, no doubt about that. Boon Keong bought me menthos! Uber nice of him. Hmm, yea that's all. I love Hanisa. Haven't been neglecting the other group of darlings i hang out with. Yvvone (Chua) is super duper nice, sweet, cute, ____ (insert positive adjectives). I love her.

Gotta go. I think im missing someone who i think i'm not supposed to miss because of some reason i don't think you should or could know if you arent the someones who know about the someone who is someone else totally from who your thinking of, if your thinking of someone at all.
ha told 'ya not to try read me. I'm a complex gurl who potrays a rather simplified version of herself to people who don't know her better then she knows them.

'taas!

2006-02-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

http://www.friendster.com/profiles/lemmongrass

Yupp. Uploaded my new pix on friendster, sadly ma current blog's space is too small. Okie. I'm hungry. I wana go eat. Takkaire!

taas' pps.!

2006-02-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

Been a long day. I'm bushed. Met Hajar darling at JE mrt at like 11 in the morn. Went to town. Walked frm Orchard Mrt to Fareast to eat LongJohns. Walked back. Shopped. Bought ma school bag, after looking and re-looking arnd Far-East, that is. Pathetic, there aint even one bag that blows me away. This bag's pretty cool though. Might be going to minitoons to get some accesories to match. I LOVE TAKA. the clothes are SO RAD. It's like FASHIONISTA paradise. Bought these really cool shades. And people- Don't go for the Paris Hilton look. Trust me-aint gona work. Walked and walked and walked. Our legs feel like jelly.
Went to the Esplande.
Chilled for a bit. Did some dumb stuff.

Got back got changed and headed for the dinner thing. The two darlings were super cute and hyper for a bunch of 3 & 4 year old kids. Will post the pictures up later.

JAJAR DARLING I LOVE 'YA! :D

2006-02-24T15:33:00.000+08:00

This week is so over and done with. Hit a few high notes and sank a little this week. Can you believe that happened to me?? TO ME of all people. THINGS LIKE THAT DON'T HAPPEN TO ME!!! Ok anyway, was asked to cut an immaginary chocolate cake and made an idiot. But it's just friends so that's pretty ok. Next week common tests, gotta mug.

I'm just really confused right now. Nothing is making sense in my head. People think i'm keeping stuff from them. Others persume i'm drifting away from them. Don't read me, i'm not an open book.

Saw Sara at Lakeside MRT station. My it's been like 3 yrs since i last saw him! And best part was, he kinda walked right past me and then paused and looked at me, and with this shocked kinda face asked me if im Dhivvya. He's known me for like *counts* 9 years now and he dosent recognise me!

Sara : Dhivvya???
Me : Yea. You don't recognise me?! Are you okay???
Sara : Yea. It's just that, you've changed alot. Can't recognise you. Took me a second glance.
Me : Haha 3 yrs is some time i guess. Btw, that your friend behind?
Sara : Yeah. Gotta run. See 'ya 'round. You really look diff la.
Me : Haha ok. You bttr get going!

The nerve of that idiot! But i guess thats perfectly understandable. I mean if my OWN FAMILY MEMBERS can manage not to regcognise me seeing me after sometime, what do my friends have to compete against?

2006-02-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

TODAY SUCKED. i am like so effed up. New SS teacher. Horray, now let's say bye-bye to that one subject we can get a distinction for. Jas will be comming back, looking foward to seeing her. Those who're not, shut up; get lost. Liyana, sweethrt you make my day. You mean alot to me. And what you think about me, about me being really intelligent i appreciate it. But i'm not all that intelligent, seriously darling. Anyway i love you. Will always be there for you. Sudenly i feel like sadness is engulfing me, i duno y. Slept at 4 woke at 5. Tired.

2006-02-20T17:51:00.000+08:00

I love Ms Salinah, she postponed the test for me. Gotta collect phy notes from pra, Wednes i guess. Felt horrid all day. Geog was okay. I loathe that pesky rodent. Tamil sucked, as always. She's gona make us stayback for what a bunch of absolutely lame jerks did. Math dragged. Yakkada yakkada yakkkada. Went to Mac after school. Crapped. Just got home, bushed and exhausted. Gotta leave soon, hope i'd be back by 9.30. Lotsa homework and revision.

2006-02-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

I'M IN LOVE. With my darlings of course. Yupp. For the reccord, i'm not into this crushing stuff. I don't dig BGR. I don't crush on people. I've got one love and that's my darlings. Don't come asking me if i'm into this guy or that, cause i'm not. Get that straight. Think whatever you want. My close guy friends are pieces of me, they're my friends. Nothing more, nothing less. I'mna say this for one last time. I AM NOT CRUSHING ON ANYONE. Pra is so dead one more time he pairs me up wif any other guy, but i guess he knows me well enough to know i'm not into anyone, and i know he's just monkeying around. So that's fine.

Today's the wedding finally. I miss my spices, if i'm back late i might not be able to make it to school. I'm still looking around for a good phone. Any suggestions?

2006-02-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

Just got back.
Function went great. The four of them turned up. Yay.
Had a jolly good time. Pra can be such an assclown.
Had fun. Ate then was under the block with them.
Crapping and waiting for our parents.
All went well.
Kumar mam's GF looks punjabi. All the same, she's sweet.
Tomoro Eliza's bdae.

2006-02-18T17:01:00.000+08:00

I am such an idiot. I deleted my previous posts in the process of creating a new blogskin.

Life's been busy. People, i am so sick of immatures. Currenlty supposed to be in town but Jajar's got a scrabble competition. Aish has got this family gatheing thingy and Pira has got tution. I love my spices. I wana watch the pink panther and i wana go to kino in taka. I wana study but i feel extremely lazy when i look at my books. Went to this family function thingy yesterday. Bored. Prasanth, Vaish, Dharsh din't turn up yesterday. I'mna kill Pra if he dosen't come today.

I wana change my hp. Any ideas?